Thursday, March 27, 2008

saya teraniaya!

i don't know how to feel...marah + sedih at the same time...well, i nangis dah tadi....

why?

well, i received an invitation from the pr agency yang handle o*lympus. 3 days trip from kl-kerteh-redang to test out their latest camera and ada this environ awareness program...i was so teruja when i received the email/invite...last year i went for their 4x4 trip kat tanjung malim (boss yang bagi) and i had such a blast (mana reti ambil gambar pun masa tu tapi other media and the o*lympus staff yang ada were really-really helpful..)and i wrote a pretty ok article using the pictures i took after that...

i printed out the email and bagi kat dragonlady and said "saya nak pergi trip ni"..she said yes and we discussed on the features that i could write..me being such a good person, pergilah isi borang tugasan luar (minta permission and elaun kerja) and bagi to the Big Boss to validate.

i bagi the borang the same nite and tanya if boleh pergi or not to the BB, he said nnt dia tgk and since the trip is end of april, dia kata tak perlu rush. i was like..what?? i dah nak bercuti masa tu and the agency surely nak confirmation awal la kan? dia tak pikir that sense ka??

anyhow...i went bercuti and the 1st (or isit 2nd...no matter) day of work, Lady Boss (lagi tinggi pangkat daripada DL, cakap BB tak bagi i pergi and she would assign a journo from the state pergi.

i was crushed sebab kenapa i tak dapat pergi, whereas ppl from other desk boleh je pergi state or overseas trip...dah lah plak the trip yg i nak pergi ni fully sponsored and i asked for elaun bodoh jer. (minta pun sebab its my right as a pekerja when u go tempat lain to do work).

tapi i redha la sebab ada gak org nak pergi as this contact is really close to us. (the pr wasn;t happy that kena hantar budak state and oped that dak kl pergi. i said the decision is not at my hand, so takleh nak cakap apa..)

i bgtau DL and dia pun marah lah kenapa nak kena suruh budak state pergi and takkan nak budak kl ni duduk and buat story around kl jer....tak berkembang langsung...and she told me kecoh sikit kenapa i dapat pergi. wtf? i bukan pergi suka-suka like that, plus it was my contact and my boss said ok...

aleh-aleh today, a colleague of mine (sama office) bgtau that she is going for the trip yg i nak pergi tu. i takdelah marah or jealous kat dia. not her fault that BL bg the asgmet to her tapi i was terkejut and crushed. gila babi patah semangat nak kerja ok?

kata nak hantar budak state tapi rupanya hantar same office. kenapa tak je cakap yg diaorg mmg taknak hantar i and give me a God damn reason. kalau prestasi kerja i merosot pun, let me know lah. ni tak, not a single word and lepas tu buat cam ni sekali.

gila terasa sangat-sangat teraniaya! i HATE this job. i hate the politics.

i guess kena terima the decision and cakap takde rezeki. but still i tak puas hati kenapa buat mcm tu sekali. gila babi cold blooded cruel.

7 comments:

tun fatimah said...

owh.. dun cry.. i hate kerja bawah orang.. vowed that i'll be my own boss one day.. lepas i bayar semua hutang pengajian ku nanti that is. hiiii... cant wait for that day to come

Queen Of The House said...

Oh I can see you are so PO!! Tak per, think of leaving someday and being your own boss. Or, jom buat cupcakes dgn Aunty! Yay for cupcakes! Cheer up, okay? Things like this just happen ....

Fadzli said...

Hi Anne..(Maria kirimm salam)..I know how you feel..Last time i had a boss who kalau dia batuk, everyone would scamper sembunyikan diri. Or buat2 sibuk hehehe..

Chill..that's why they call it 'work'. They pay you money to get scolded [albeit sounds a bit harsh]. Take care, just keep your head down and buat kerja sepenuh hati.

Bidadari said...

Tun, i dunno if i'll ever be my own boss satu hari nanti...i still do in a way love writing and meeting ppl...*sigh*..its just the preassure and erratic work hours, plus BS from the ppl above yg tak tahan sangat...

Aunty L, jom buat cupcakes! u have to teach me , tho...i hanya lepas buat muffins aja..oh, and dadih..! i tried buat dadih aritu and it was perfect! (masuk bakul angkat sendiri sekejap..hahaha)

Grunge, wah...bosses from hell. i hope most of them don't have MBAs (Management By Anger). :-D scolded bertempat i can accept, kena marah tak tentu pasal...is only like menjatuhkan air muka org lain. anyway, Kirim salam to Maria semula!

Nana said...

yes. we do get that kind of treatment sometimes in our life. pls do not think so much. u'll waste ur time feeling all sad, heartsick, tak semangat and all...& THEY dont even take notice of that...cheer up! (just wanna share..i get this from my forum - really effective way i practise whenever i feel down)

Anonymous said...

Chill out Ann. Jom ikut Pak Tam and Papa gi fishing!!! Btw, the cupcake plan... so far i only saw ur aunt buying the cups but where are the cakes?

Bidadari said...

nana, thank you so much for sharing...i tak pikir sangat dah nowdays and try to keep my head low jer most of the time. buat kerja, then balik...malas nak tgk and layan all the oilih kasih-ness/politik office...

Pak Tham...wah! ni mesti Aunty L bagitau about the blog..so segan la...semua nie mumblble jumbles je...hahaha..happy reading! oh, aunty dah ada cups? here, i dah ada complete ingredients for dadih yummy tapi until now tak buat lagi...geng la dgn aunty.hahaha