Tuesday, October 14, 2008

medusa from hell

gosh! lots of things happened since raya...! even during raya pun, banyak benda memorable yang berlaku..hahaha...

* 1 Syawal

This year raya is at buki*t antarabang*sa (BA) since last year dah di rumah fitri...usually my family adalah bersalam-salaman tapi takdelah macam formal or anything..this year, things were different! my parents actually changed tradition and duduk kat sofa, suruh my bro and i bersalaman proper-proper! even my bro kena go one round and salam my parents, then me....! :-)

sebelum tu, fitri and i dah bersalam kat bilik (since i told him my family part bersalam ni a bit tak formal macam his family)...dunno why, tapi heartfelt la salam dgn fitri..control macho dari menitis air mata ok?

tgh salam, peluk tetiba kat background lagu Everything by Michae*l Bubl*e. for those yang tak tahu, that was the song in our wedding slide show...! consider like our song lah juga...hahaha...

then, as usual, makan brekkie lemang and all its goodness, including itik golek yang sangat sedap...(terliur je lagi bila pikir about the itik)..then, salam everyone in my family before pergi ke taman ta*r later that day..

at my in-laws, apa lagi, makan lagi and then ambil gambar family pictures (somehow dalam kegembiraan di BA, we terlupa nak ambil gambar with my family...mental note : next year kena amik gak!)

malam raya fitri kena balik melak*a already sebab dia kerja raya kedua onwards... :-( as we were rushing to bukit jali*l (sebb buses selata*n kat sana), fitri tersalah jalan and we all termasuk ke putraja*ya with only 10 mins sebelum his bus nak bergerak...dahlah highway baru tu takde U-turn! so, masuklah putraja*ya and pusinglah jalan jauh, exit tru Kajan*g, then Sunga*i Bes*i!

by the time we reach Buki*t jalil, time was already 10.20, closing to 10.30 pm! guess what? it was a miracle (and sheer luck) that the bus to melak*a was still there...nasib baik, kalau tak, surely i kena hantar fitri ke melak*a..which sebenarnya i don't mind... :-P

that nite my parents menziarahi my in-laws, sampai sana pukul 8.30 pm tapi balik, almost 12 am! apparently they all suka berborak! i'm happy that both families click! coul imagine the loghat kedah yang non-stop that nite.. :-)

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Fitri came back on malam raya ke-5 and stayed for a week! best gila!!! sorry dear i had to work masa u ada di rumah... :-(

i started work masa raya ke-4 and it was for me the longest week ever...everything was slow..i truly have no semangat whatsoever to do stuff....buat kerja pun slow, sikit-sikit je...lepas tu balik awal.. :-)

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i had braxton hicks contractions semalam...and it wasn't nice...sakit ooo....tapi baby still kicking, so legalah sikit di sebalik kesakitan tu..

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work-wise, it has been disheartening when you see that one of your bosses mengamalkan favoritisme melampau....been listening to stories dalam office where ppl are complaining that a colleague asyik mengampu sampai even the person punya apprasal bagus eventho hakikatnya dia nyer stories biasa-biasa je, miss gak datelines...

and this one perticular boss, asyik membacking this one colleague sampai dia menurunkan morale everyone else...its like this one person yang buat kerja bagus and yang lain hanya backup for her measly work! banyakla cerita yang tak sedap didengar...

padahal i could say that ppl are working their asses off... yg mc sebab sakit still buat kerja kat rumah, yang baru je accident sanggup pergi office walaupun tgh tangan berbalut w mata yang lebam, yg dah separuh gila sebab stress still bertahan and suck their feelings to do work!

mmglah i tak puas hati, but i just listen to complains..malas nak buat pepe coz i know it wouldn't make any difference pun...anyway, u can't really stop favoritisme pun...its in every office politics.

today is the worst ever and it hit me big time...

you see, semalam i told my boss, BL, yang i nak slow down kerja next month...taknak keluar asgmts, buat columns tertentu until i cuti bersalin, sebaliknya tumpukan kerja-kerja di office e.g buat translation, research, process press release ke apa...and BL said ok, nnt dia bgtau another colleague untuk take over since she doesn't really have a column since getting back from maternity leave a couple of months ago...

you see, my colleague ni kira just joined the feature*s desk sebelum dia bersalin and bila balik, takde proper-proper column yet...since now i pula yang preggie, BL mintalah dia take-over...

so, i will be taking her to a few events for her to get to know the pr etc...

anyway, today sometime before lunch, DL (bukan BL) apparently pergi kat my colleague yg nak ganti i next month ni, and bitch about me!

DL ni boleh cakap "anne tu bukannya sampai paralise tak boleh pergi asgmts ke apa.." and this coming from a mouth perempuan, bukan lelaki ok?

she added "allaa all her columns semua senang...centrefold tu boleh je guna press release...lagi pun (she sebutlah anak emas kesayangan dia) buat semua kerja..

crap and what a bit*ch! padahal, yg anak kesayangan dia tu buat kerja based on rotation yang dia sendiri (DL) set, and i do help my colleagues with other stff, walaupun ada kalanya tak dapat nak tolong sangat...

plus, centrefold tu mana nak dapat release kalau u tak kenal orang and bukan semua orang bagi release that sesuai utk centrefold. i think DL is just stupid. dahlah malas, tau nak cari shortcuts and harap kat orang lain!

what i don;t like is she doesn't offer constructive feedbacks, rather than saying no and shooting down ppl's suggestion...

lepas tu kutuk story orang, and think dia punya anak emas story bagus all the time...padahal, anak emas story tu ala-ala je, semua yang tak perlu nak buat banyak research, buat story based on satu sumber...and fashion. itupun tak reti nak guna proper fashion terms!

yg buat i marah is her remarks pasal i larat nak buat kerja luar! i nak jalan from the parking space to the office pun dah termengah-mengah sampai kengkadang nak pengsan, ini nak gi run around??

and she has the nerve to say that i tak buat kerja...and trying to get ppl against me~! padahal i tak ganggu pun hidup dia, except from the occasional lambat hantar kerja...or tak hantar (but with a very valid reason).

and the reason for me to slow down work is i;m already in my 8th months, nnt karang terberanak masa tgh asgmt, or worst, contraction masa tgh driving or stuck dalam traffic, bukan ke menyusahkan orang lain?? apa citer kalau i pergi asgmt and then cuti bersalin, bukan ke story pun basi? bukan ke lagi baik buat handover awal?

lagipun, me staying at the office bukan utk goyang kaki! i asked a few ppl kat office (yg pangkat boss gak) sama ada my request to slow down is valid and they said yes...provided i tak abaikan my tanggungjawab and still do work kat office.

one boss even said something like : bukan u tak boleh buat story cover berkualiti dari office. with research and being resourceful, boleh jer...we have done it before.

there's one boss a few days before cakap : "saya tau awak still larat nak jalan etc. tapi kita tak mahulah awak sakit masa assgnmts ke apa"

another person even said : "mmg dah jadi amalan utus*an utk letakkan wartawan yang ngndung buat kerja-kerja office"

and these bosses are lelaki ok?? yg 2nd boss tu cakap waay before DL yang amat bitchy ni bersuara about me behnd my back...

biasanya i tak kisah orang nak ngutuk belakang i, coz i know ramai je gossip belakang-belakang ni...tapi apa yang tak tahan ialah when someone menghasut everyone else to go against you....

that is bad..dah lah u tu kira dianggap senior and ketua, and u are showing perangai yang mcam tu..how ppl nak respect you...

sometimes its true, cermin diri sendiri dulu sebelum mengata about others....not one is perfect i know, but then, at least jgnla buat sampai macam tu sekali kan? i hope Tuhan balas balik apa yang dia buat...

i cried in the office when i found out about it...and by the time i duduk office je, i target most of my workpile dah settle, all my columns filled...and hopefully, i will have cuti bersalin yang tenang...

*sigh* and thats is why i always wear headphones...dgr muzik lebih baik.

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