sakit...

i've been very sick for almost a week now....selsema and batuk, nasib baik demam comes and go....but seriously, this time is the worst sakit i've had in my adulthood...

usually it would just hilang in a couple of days..its terrible...i've been coughing non stop even in my sleep and i've terrible running nose...God knows berapa kotak tissue dah habis since i got sick...

dah tiga hari ambil mc, dua hari kerja masa sakit sebab terpaksa, the rest off days...

my boss suggested i minta dr leave or i ambil cuti for a week so that i could recuperate and tak ganggu flow kerja...

the thing is, cuti i makin sikit and i'm trying to save up for december...plus, i think having mc pun cukuplah kot setakat ni..i've been sleeping throught the day and at times, siapkan a couple of articles...

a week of holiday seems like luxury for me...bukan apa, my workpile semakin menimbun and i still have to get them done...datelines are looming all the time esp with the coming Ramadan and Syawal....

this is the first time in 4 years since i started working kat kos*mo that i tak masuk office for a week sebab sakit....

its really hard...i wish fitri is home...actually i even cried wishing that he's in kl...him being back at least makes this sakit bearable sikit.

maybe i'm just being manja, but then its so much nicer when there's somebody to take care of you when u are sick, no?

Happy Birthday, Abi!

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Happy 29th Birthday, Abi!

Here's to another great year full of laughter, joy and fun...of course, a life full of suprises, love and happiness!

Sorry sangat tak dapat celebrate it with you over there..tho, i do wish i'm there....

Love you to bits! and now, kita dah tak share age yang samalah.. :-D

Lots of love always and always,
-Ayang-

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Anyone berminat...silalah antar gambar dan ucapan ek? bukan selalu...lagipun, this is another additional selain yg ada kat mainstream akhbar lain..u guys takyah tunggu lelama or risau sama ada masuk ke idak... :-)

Tak semestinya korang kena ada di oversea, tetapi ia juga terbuka kepada mereka yang ada kat m'sia...

Please spread the word around...terima kasih!

oh, lala!

u could make me a happy preggie woman by just serving me pasta! hahah....seriously, just bribe me with a big fat bowl of pasta, and all masalah would vanish like thin air in sekelip mata...or at least for a while....

gosh, i love pasta since forever tapi masa mengandung ni, this is my absolute favourite! i would try and cari alasan to eat pasta whenever i can...of course i do eat other food but nothing can warm my tummy like a big dish of pasta! hhahahaha....

i'm talking about food when i'm puasa?!? penuh kesabaran ok? even tadi i pergi function pelancaran pesta makanan melaka at one of the hotels here and semua org dok sedap makan, i tahan je..*proud of myself*...kalau tak, bila lagi nak ganti kan?

berbalik pada pasta...i've been cooking pasta bila time rajin...well, actually i made pasta goreng with sun dried tomatoes je...selalunya pedas sebab terlebih letak cabai kering..hahaha...but, pedas bertemu masam is like so heavenly!

which reminds me, i selalu buat pasta goreng pedas and thanks to fitri, i've learnt that you could tone it but letakkan gula, garam or any other stuff...sorrylah semua, moi cannot cook that well...still dalam fasa belajar...hahaha...

but everytime i cook, my baby akan kick my tummy! same what Natgeo's In the wom*b cakap...! babies tend to recognise their mum's cooking since dalam rahim lagi! so better start now! :-D

oh, and i failed nak buat bolognese sauce...haritu buat ceroi might be the right word...seriously ta sedap, ok? first attempt...takpe-takpe, next time try lagi...konon berani lah nak buat from scratch, without using the sauce-from-the-bottle! hahaha....failed misreably..

oklah sebelum i terliur with my pasta dream, i better stop now and sambung buat kerja! :-D

Jason Mraz Ft Colbie Caillat - Lucky

Do you hear me,
I'm talking to you
Across the water across the deep blue ocean
Under the open sky, oh my, baby I'm trying

Boy I hear you in my dreams
I feel your whisper across the sea
I keep you with me in my heart
You make it easier when life gets hard

I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
Ooohh ooooh oooh oooh ooh ooh ooh ooh

They don't know how long it takes
Waiting for a love like this
Every time we say goodbye
I wish we had one more kiss
I'll wait for you I promise you, I will

I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
Lucky we're in love every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday

And so I'm sailing through the sea
To an island where we'll meet
You'll hear the music fill the air
I'll put a flower in your hair

though the breezes through trees
Move so pretty you're all I see
As the world keeps spinning round
You hold me right here right now

I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
I'm lucky we're in love every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday

Ooohh ooooh oooh oooh ooh ooh ooh ooh
Ooooh ooooh oooh oooh ooh ooh ooh ooh

I've been addicted to this song for the last coulple of weeks...seriously. would e playing it non-stop while driving and masa buat kerja....hahaha...sampai fitri pun nak muntah..hahaha...you guys shoud see the you*tube vids some ppl buat based on this song..some of them are really good!

John Mayer: Say What You Need to Say

Take all of your wasted honor.
Every little past frustration.
Take all of your so called problems,
Better put 'em in quotations.

Say what you need to say (x8)

Walkin' like a one man army,
Fightin' with the shadows in your head.
Livin' up the same old moment
Knowin' you'd be better off instead

If you could only...Say what you need to say (x8)

Have no fear for givin' in.
Have no fear for giving over.
You better know that in the end
It's better to say too much, than never to say what you need to say again.

Even if your hands are shaking,
And your faith is broken.
Even as the eyes are closin',
Do it with a heart wide open.

Say what you need to say (x7)

Say what you need to, Say what you need to...

Say what you need to say.

what a day...

today i can safely say that i has been a day full of jinxes for me....*sigh*.

it started with the trip to the dentist. ok, i know dentist's visits are not something all of us looking forward to, but cannot help la sebab i need to take care of the gigi esp now...my gums have started to bleed everytime i brush my gigi, which i've made to understand is normal for preggies.

nasib baik no tooth decay (which is normal for preggies too) or gigi berlubang lagi...so kali ni kena scaling jer...jer tu pun sakit tahap dewa ok? esp bila kena bersihkan kat area dgn gums...i was yoga breathing je throught the whole ordeal! itupun ada kala tak tahan and berkerut muka, pipi semua....darah tu, takyah cakaplah kan?

i was mega-relieved when dr dah start polish the gigi and by the time i keluar the dentist, i can rasa like the whole mulut sakit macam bila you main dgn ulser mulut. pedih but twistedly sedap and sakit.

after lunch, i terus tunggu cab nak balik rumah ke B.A...it has been such a long time since i naik cab to go anywhere. even nak ke dentist pun my bro yg hantar sebelum dia kena pergi bengkel etc... why naik cab when i have a car? my bro took my car since he just got into an accident the nite before (nasib baik keta je teruk, not him!).

tunggulah cab, agak lama gak sebab the bus stand is tepi highway and semua org as usuallah bawa laju and takkan nak duduk kat lane paling dalam kan? so sambil menunggu langit pun dah gelap...risau gak sebab i tak bawa payung ke apa...plus kl dah lama tak hujan...

in a way, luck was at my side when a taxi membuat stunt dr lane tengah terus ke the bus stop, close behind hin the was a bmw...dia berhenti dekat i and i teruslah naik...he was a pleasant driver, very the alim...why i say alim?

because sepanjang dia nak hantar i dari taman melawati to BA, dia dok ceritalah pasal remaja zaman sekarang with their bad attitude and PDA melampau sini sana tanpa pikir orang lain, and persiapan utk puasa...

although what he said meant well, but i couldn't help and terpikir : "does he think i'm a remaja yang pregnant tanpa kahwin"...*sigh. really.

but i appreciated his kindness esp when he picked me up and buat lagak ngeri tu sebab dia tgk hari dah nak hujan and i looked desperate to go back...

sampai-sampai rumah, satu lawak pun berlaku. i don't have the housekeys! my parents were away for a trip to utara and will only sampai malam, and my bro has my keys! (the housekey was with the car key).

sitting at a bench bawah porch, with a pile of letters i took from the mailbox, i was marah and frustrated...and then hujan pun turun dengan lebat sekali. i pun menagis sekali dgn hujan tu...

as i was sorting the letters, i tgklah ada surat from lhdn for me....memula ingatkan my cek dah dapat coz they owe me about rm390 from taxes yang terbayar lebih. jangkaan i salah sama sekali! instead, they want me to pay rm133 for cukai! i was flabergasted, i was in disgust. i was blardy mad.

here i am, sitting alone outside my house and tgh hujan lebat and dapat surat lhdn suruh bayar to them! what made me angry was the fact when i filled my borang cukai, ada staff lhdn yang tolong i! so, kalau i salah isi, maknanya staff lhdn tu pun tak reti nak isi borang cukai lah kan?

and you know what, dalam surat tu, it stated : sekiranya tuan tidak berpuas hati dengan taksiran ini, tuan boleh merayu terhadapnya dal;am borang yang ditetapkan dalam had tempoh yang dinyatakan di muka surat sebelah. walaubagaimanapun, cukai kena dibayar itu mesti dibayar sepenuhnya.

what the heck??? dahlah nak kena isi borang, lepas tu kena bayar lagi and then, i think my borang tu akan hilang dalam the stupid birokrasi thingy for God knows how long...ntah-ntah until i isi next year's borang pun tak dapat lagi...

ok, maybe i isi salah aritu but then, it also meant the kakitangan are not berpengetahuan no?

i'm going to lhdn office and suruh diaorg kira balik my cukai. kalau i salah, oklah meant i salah and i will pay whatever that needs to bayar. tapi kalau i betul, mmg nak je i sekolahkan lhdn balik. next friday lah kot baru pergi since i'll be on leave that day.

since i dah sensorang, fitri suruh i call a cab to go to my in-laws. call one cab company, tunggu for about 20 mins to half an hour, then baru diaorang call kata "no cab". then call lagi satu company, luckily ada tapi have to wait another berapa minit ntah before sampai...

and being pregnant, suddenly i nak ke loo tapi takkan nak membuang kat tengah-tengah padang and kena basah sebab hujan kan?? tahan je lah.....which can be really hard ok?

bila dah on the way ke taman tar, my bro called and tanya where i was...apparently dia dah habis check his car and about to leave the bengkel to go home...*sigh*

sampai je taman tar, takde kereta depan rumah and my heart stopped for a while. "are they out too?". nasib baik ada orang..! lega gila...

i was rushing coz i needed to hantar a few questions to this one pr for an email interview. and i taknak dia call i to remind me lagi..(dah banyak kali call, tapi i asyik lupa + busy). dah settle everything, after about 2 hours di taman tar, my bro finally sampai and we went home...

without anymore bad lucks...oh what a day!

marah!

i'm so pissed off at a colleague today....well, i'm easily irritated every day pun....tapi kali ni i'm so like mega mad...

you see, i went for an asgmt a few days before my cuti and i was holding that story until i get back....dahlah asgmt mmg ramai org datang and everyone kena tahan sabar sebab slow...then, harini i berkobar-kobarlah nak buat story sebab plan nak keluarkan rabu ni...

aleh-aleh, a colleague dah beat me to it! dahla dia tak pergi asgmt tu, most likely got the release from the pr and dia nak publish for his column this sunday! *curses*

i'm angry coz the sunday issue team has a week to prepare stuff, unlike the daily like us...yg kerja separuh nak mati sebab nak kejar datelines, asgments.....and dia senang-senang guna release and tambah-tambah info lain!

plus sunday issue selalunya kena buat special interviews for kolum kesihatan and bukannya selalu sgt pergi asgmt...argh!

dahlah ni like kali kedua or ketiga dah kena perkara yang sama! told my boss and dia kata boleh simpan utk raya etc...tapi cam tak best kan kena recycle story padahal it should be ours in the first place!

terus tak bersemangat nak buat story. marahnya!

and you know what? the story is about stress and hypertension...go figure.


UPDATE : My friend apologised to me last Friday about it...he didn't know about me pergi the asgnment and said that he only wrote what is based on the press release. so, i can kembangkan lagi the article later-later. i accepted his apology. all is good.