Monday, September 14, 2009

Bfeeding and such

"Dapat berapa?" asked a lady while i was pumping milk in the surau.

"Dapat 2-3 oz jer," i answered with a weak smile....

"Oh, i dapat 5 oz je..sikit kan?" answered the lady...

*smack in the face for me kejap*...aiyoh! i only got 2 oz+ for my precious after like an hour of pumping and she dapat 5 oz in 10 mins...and yet dia kata sikit?

since when does pumping milk became a race on who gets the most?

personally i think breastfeeding is the most wonderful thing you could give to your child if you are able...tho, i have to admit, since 3rd april 2009 dahlia has been mixed fed.....

i would like to think that dahlia is receiving the best of both worlds..rather than cussing myself and thinking that i'm a failure for not able to exclusively bfeed my baby...

i wasn't producing as much milk as i hoped due to time and work constrains...and stress...*sigh*

some might think it as an alasan for me tak dapat susu banyak, but then, try stting in my position and feel for yourself lah...isk.

but doesn't mean i'm not dissapointed when tgk susu sikit or when i was too busy to pump.... :-(

i remembered an online conversation i had with a friend long time ago...when i first introduced formula to dahlia...

"bagi susu formula doesn't mean you are a bad mother....dahlia will still be a smart and healthy baby ok!" said my friend who her name matches with my lil' miss - bee...(something like that la sebab the conversation dah lama dah kan??)...

that short conversation with bee and an sms sent by hubby did help me a lot...it made me feel better....thank you!~

oh, dahlia now pandai kalau nak nenen...she would call me 'mama' (other times tak pun) and sebut 'nenenenenen' or when she's crawling and i tgh dok baring, she would terus pergi ke situ...

i'm so proud of my lil' bunga... :-)

for those yang exclusively bfeeding, keep up the good work...
for those yang dah mixed, well we tried kan?
for those yg dah totally formula, not bfeeding doesnt mean you are a bad mother....everyone has their options...

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to all,

i'm so sorry for not updating for such the longest time....sibuk teramat sangat...more updates soon!

6 comments:

beautifulLIFE said...

got ur sms last nite,terus bukak tis morning..ghee..whose said that 5oz tuh skit?haiyooo..dia patut bersyukur maaa..or mayb dia b4 tis byk giler susu..takpe anne..u did try your(our) best kan?..and if dahlia still crawling to u (tats cute!) for nenen,means she stil need yr milk..means dont give up okey dear..i used to have tat feeling of tak berjaya bf exclusively,bad mother..bla bla bla..then fikir balik,there're so many other things tat u can give to our child..like love+hugs+kisses! :,

Jas said...

Eleh.. just ignore those ppl yg eksyen, Anne. Dahlia knows you love her and that you do your best for her.

*hugz*

See you in a few days!

fabulous said...

no worries...u dah provide thebest during her early days kan :))) now shes tough little kiddo who ready to face the world..

every parents bring up their children differently :))) yeah maybe we share some tips here & there but the style is yours hundred percent.

allison said...

Keep it up Anne - it's all about the heart and that's what matters!

A blogger friend also tried ways to increase milk supply for her baby boy. U might check it out sometimes. http://www.mariahlc.com/chnblog/?p=1537

U might need babelfish to translate the website... But I guess the links alone are pretty useful... just my 2sen...

All the best to you, tank and baby Dahlia... ;-)

Bidadari said...

Sha, alhamdullilah Dahlia adapted to both formula-bmilk...mmglah ada rasa bersalah sebab tak exclusively bfeed but then, i can;t manage it esp with this line of work. Dahlia is receiving tonnes of hugs and kisses! ;-)

Jas, i am ignoring but then it can be hard sometimes...eventho they don't mean any harm but then, u cant help it terasa....oh, i so loved your cupcakes! nnt for sure nak order! hehehe....

Nana, i'm glad i tried coz its all worthwhile!

Allison, thank you! i read the blog and boy, your friend really-really tried banyak cara! anyway, hope to see you soon!

apin said...

same here anne...and besides, the amount you pump does not indicate the amount of b/milk you actually have. as long as dahlia dapat wateva you can give her and she's satisfied, ok la tu.

mari kita terus berjuang!!! hahahah