Craving for a book?

Can you imagine me craving for a book?? its not to be eaten, of course (i'm not that weird, ok?)...i've heard lots of good reviews regarding this book since it came out but being me, i'm always ketinggalan sikit...

everytime i saw it at the bookstore, i would grab it and then put it back in its shelf...dunno why.

but the urge to find out what it is about is always there.

maybe by not reading it, its my way of trying to not follow the current trend...i even bought the dvd earlier this year (i think) and until now i haven't seen it...ntah kenapa...

but things changed on Sunday, 12th...while waiting for fitri and my in-laws to arrive di GE Mall, i went to MP*H. (i was working that day, so sampai the mall earlier than orang lain).

i went to the shelf that have this book and duduk on the floor buat tak tahu kat dunia lain and read this book....it caught my attention...i finally flipped the pages!

i read until chapter 5. and i left the bookstore with a sense of regret of not buying it....

then, last wednesday, i went out with my parents and i searched the book kat Ampan*g Poin*t....ada di Popula*r tapi cover and font tak best...so, eventho i was tired already, i managed to pujuk my parents to Wangs*a Maju...

dengan penuh bersemangat ni, berjalan lajulah (since i can't really run nowdays) i ke MP*H sana....punyalah puas mencari, rupa-rupanya the book takde!

imagine my dissapointment and anger when i found out takde! i mean, it is a popular book and it is one of the most popular bookstore...

what i realised was, most of the books there are locally published books (which is good) and yang tak bestnya, kebanyakan juga buku cinta-cintan.....*sigh*.

adakah buku-buku ini berdasarkan demografik pembaca? adakah ia melambangkan bahawa pembaca di kawasan itu lebih tertumpu kepada chic lits and kisah-kisah cinta? (i have nothing against chic lits, mind you...i read them too)

i'm not denying that there are good books there, but the novels yang dijual tu..*sigh*.

i really think i was 'craving' for the book. why you say? coz when i didn't get it, my hati hancur macam orang yang mengidam tak dapat apa yang dia nak...hehehe...

hearing that i really² wanted the book, fitri bought one for me...hehehe...but of course now i have to wait for him to sampai dari melaka.. :-P thank you, dear!

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Obgyn : Datuk Dr. As*har Abdulla*h
Location : Ampan*g Pute*ri Specialist Hospy
Date of checkup : 20th October 2008
Weeks of pregnancy : 33 weeks
Body weight : 59 kg

Three pictures were taken that day! The last 2 are the 4D scans... :-D muka siapa agak-agak u guys? :-P so excited!

we were suprised that Dr wanted to do the 4D scan...position was OK. Baby is in position, but belum engage je lagi...

wow...! soon! *disbelieve*

I now have 2 expected due dates! One is 7th December (if ikut pengiraan my menstrual cycle) and the other one is around 2oth Dec. 2008. How come you ask?

Well, if based on the ukuran badan baby (and it is tiny!), due date dia lambat sikit...*sigh*...

so, when i asked the good Dr nak pilih which date, he said, "we'll go on the new date.." of course he'll keep a close eye on any changes.. :-)

my baby is about 1.7kg, tiny, but so far, alhamdulilah, everything is normal...

Fitri was with me this time and seing his face watching the screen masa tgh scanning was priceless~! i do wish i could take pix masa tu... :-)

Told Dr. that i would want an epidural masa labour and since I'm already in my 8th month, checkups will be done every 2 weeks.

I have 2 checkups done. One at AP and the other one, Klini*k Kesihata*n in AU*2. both kena pergi every 2 weeks.

Of course i will deliver the baby at AP, the reason pergi KK pun sebab nak ambil kad merah tu je..but since i dah pernah miss one appointment and have seen how committed the nurses there, i decided to go to both places...tak rugi pun, both cara checkup berlainan...!

apart from the urine test, bp and weight readings which was done by both places, KK tak do ultrascan but of course AP does...

selain itu, KK akan check heartbeat baby, ukur perut, check if i have swollen ankles and give me tetanus jabs. no suppliments since they are informed that i have taken from AP.

nnt bila bersalin, the nurses from KK akan datang melawat u and check if u need help/advise on nak mandikan, or susukan baby...

AP's checkup is simpler. Bp, weight, urine test and scan + consultation with the Dr. I like asking Dr. As*har questions....he's really cool! :-)

anyway, for the first time since i pergi AP masuk je the waiting room, it was empty! i was shocked! the nurses pun senyum je sebab apparently semua patients yg dtg earlier reacted that way...haha...and waiting was only about 1 hour+. easy breezy. :-)

in term of preparations, we are almost done with the basic things we need...just a couple more items...

my room is full of bags! i now have to start washing the baju, keep them in the drawers, prepare the hospy bag, and getting room the ready....

wow~! we are going to be parents really soon! sekejap je rasa....... :-P

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argh!

i've been trying to change my blog template but asyik error jer..why la? padahal just copy, paste and save..anyone can help??

medusa from hell

gosh! lots of things happened since raya...! even during raya pun, banyak benda memorable yang berlaku..hahaha...

* 1 Syawal

This year raya is at buki*t antarabang*sa (BA) since last year dah di rumah fitri...usually my family adalah bersalam-salaman tapi takdelah macam formal or anything..this year, things were different! my parents actually changed tradition and duduk kat sofa, suruh my bro and i bersalaman proper-proper! even my bro kena go one round and salam my parents, then me....! :-)

sebelum tu, fitri and i dah bersalam kat bilik (since i told him my family part bersalam ni a bit tak formal macam his family)...dunno why, tapi heartfelt la salam dgn fitri..control macho dari menitis air mata ok?

tgh salam, peluk tetiba kat background lagu Everything by Michae*l Bubl*e. for those yang tak tahu, that was the song in our wedding slide show...! consider like our song lah juga...hahaha...

then, as usual, makan brekkie lemang and all its goodness, including itik golek yang sangat sedap...(terliur je lagi bila pikir about the itik)..then, salam everyone in my family before pergi ke taman ta*r later that day..

at my in-laws, apa lagi, makan lagi and then ambil gambar family pictures (somehow dalam kegembiraan di BA, we terlupa nak ambil gambar with my family...mental note : next year kena amik gak!)

malam raya fitri kena balik melak*a already sebab dia kerja raya kedua onwards... :-( as we were rushing to bukit jali*l (sebb buses selata*n kat sana), fitri tersalah jalan and we all termasuk ke putraja*ya with only 10 mins sebelum his bus nak bergerak...dahlah highway baru tu takde U-turn! so, masuklah putraja*ya and pusinglah jalan jauh, exit tru Kajan*g, then Sunga*i Bes*i!

by the time we reach Buki*t jalil, time was already 10.20, closing to 10.30 pm! guess what? it was a miracle (and sheer luck) that the bus to melak*a was still there...nasib baik, kalau tak, surely i kena hantar fitri ke melak*a..which sebenarnya i don't mind... :-P

that nite my parents menziarahi my in-laws, sampai sana pukul 8.30 pm tapi balik, almost 12 am! apparently they all suka berborak! i'm happy that both families click! coul imagine the loghat kedah yang non-stop that nite.. :-)

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Fitri came back on malam raya ke-5 and stayed for a week! best gila!!! sorry dear i had to work masa u ada di rumah... :-(

i started work masa raya ke-4 and it was for me the longest week ever...everything was slow..i truly have no semangat whatsoever to do stuff....buat kerja pun slow, sikit-sikit je...lepas tu balik awal.. :-)

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i had braxton hicks contractions semalam...and it wasn't nice...sakit ooo....tapi baby still kicking, so legalah sikit di sebalik kesakitan tu..

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work-wise, it has been disheartening when you see that one of your bosses mengamalkan favoritisme melampau....been listening to stories dalam office where ppl are complaining that a colleague asyik mengampu sampai even the person punya apprasal bagus eventho hakikatnya dia nyer stories biasa-biasa je, miss gak datelines...

and this one perticular boss, asyik membacking this one colleague sampai dia menurunkan morale everyone else...its like this one person yang buat kerja bagus and yang lain hanya backup for her measly work! banyakla cerita yang tak sedap didengar...

padahal i could say that ppl are working their asses off... yg mc sebab sakit still buat kerja kat rumah, yang baru je accident sanggup pergi office walaupun tgh tangan berbalut w mata yang lebam, yg dah separuh gila sebab stress still bertahan and suck their feelings to do work!

mmglah i tak puas hati, but i just listen to complains..malas nak buat pepe coz i know it wouldn't make any difference pun...anyway, u can't really stop favoritisme pun...its in every office politics.

today is the worst ever and it hit me big time...

you see, semalam i told my boss, BL, yang i nak slow down kerja next month...taknak keluar asgmts, buat columns tertentu until i cuti bersalin, sebaliknya tumpukan kerja-kerja di office e.g buat translation, research, process press release ke apa...and BL said ok, nnt dia bgtau another colleague untuk take over since she doesn't really have a column since getting back from maternity leave a couple of months ago...

you see, my colleague ni kira just joined the feature*s desk sebelum dia bersalin and bila balik, takde proper-proper column yet...since now i pula yang preggie, BL mintalah dia take-over...

so, i will be taking her to a few events for her to get to know the pr etc...

anyway, today sometime before lunch, DL (bukan BL) apparently pergi kat my colleague yg nak ganti i next month ni, and bitch about me!

DL ni boleh cakap "anne tu bukannya sampai paralise tak boleh pergi asgmts ke apa.." and this coming from a mouth perempuan, bukan lelaki ok?

she added "allaa all her columns semua senang...centrefold tu boleh je guna press release...lagi pun (she sebutlah anak emas kesayangan dia) buat semua kerja..

crap and what a bit*ch! padahal, yg anak kesayangan dia tu buat kerja based on rotation yang dia sendiri (DL) set, and i do help my colleagues with other stff, walaupun ada kalanya tak dapat nak tolong sangat...

plus, centrefold tu mana nak dapat release kalau u tak kenal orang and bukan semua orang bagi release that sesuai utk centrefold. i think DL is just stupid. dahlah malas, tau nak cari shortcuts and harap kat orang lain!

what i don;t like is she doesn't offer constructive feedbacks, rather than saying no and shooting down ppl's suggestion...

lepas tu kutuk story orang, and think dia punya anak emas story bagus all the time...padahal, anak emas story tu ala-ala je, semua yang tak perlu nak buat banyak research, buat story based on satu sumber...and fashion. itupun tak reti nak guna proper fashion terms!

yg buat i marah is her remarks pasal i larat nak buat kerja luar! i nak jalan from the parking space to the office pun dah termengah-mengah sampai kengkadang nak pengsan, ini nak gi run around??

and she has the nerve to say that i tak buat kerja...and trying to get ppl against me~! padahal i tak ganggu pun hidup dia, except from the occasional lambat hantar kerja...or tak hantar (but with a very valid reason).

and the reason for me to slow down work is i;m already in my 8th months, nnt karang terberanak masa tgh asgmt, or worst, contraction masa tgh driving or stuck dalam traffic, bukan ke menyusahkan orang lain?? apa citer kalau i pergi asgmt and then cuti bersalin, bukan ke story pun basi? bukan ke lagi baik buat handover awal?

lagipun, me staying at the office bukan utk goyang kaki! i asked a few ppl kat office (yg pangkat boss gak) sama ada my request to slow down is valid and they said yes...provided i tak abaikan my tanggungjawab and still do work kat office.

one boss even said something like : bukan u tak boleh buat story cover berkualiti dari office. with research and being resourceful, boleh jer...we have done it before.

there's one boss a few days before cakap : "saya tau awak still larat nak jalan etc. tapi kita tak mahulah awak sakit masa assgnmts ke apa"

another person even said : "mmg dah jadi amalan utus*an utk letakkan wartawan yang ngndung buat kerja-kerja office"

and these bosses are lelaki ok?? yg 2nd boss tu cakap waay before DL yang amat bitchy ni bersuara about me behnd my back...

biasanya i tak kisah orang nak ngutuk belakang i, coz i know ramai je gossip belakang-belakang ni...tapi apa yang tak tahan ialah when someone menghasut everyone else to go against you....

that is bad..dah lah u tu kira dianggap senior and ketua, and u are showing perangai yang mcam tu..how ppl nak respect you...

sometimes its true, cermin diri sendiri dulu sebelum mengata about others....not one is perfect i know, but then, at least jgnla buat sampai macam tu sekali kan? i hope Tuhan balas balik apa yang dia buat...

i cried in the office when i found out about it...and by the time i duduk office je, i target most of my workpile dah settle, all my columns filled...and hopefully, i will have cuti bersalin yang tenang...

*sigh* and thats is why i always wear headphones...dgr muzik lebih baik.